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So bottle up old love; Throw it out to sea </3
2006-12-28
10:22 p.m.
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5 more days to 2007. I'm honestly pretty afraid of what the new year will bring with it. I'm pretty afraid it might turn out like this year, or even worse. It scares me to think about the possibility of losing some people I love next year, as we embark on our separate, and very different paths. Its really scares me to even think about the O levels, and my grades next year. Its really, really scares me, because I don't even know whether I have even strength, or courage, to fully let go of the hurts, disappointments, losts & all the memories I've buried so deep within myself.

Just five more days. I eagerly anticipate a new start, where I can finally leave behind all the sorrows of this year. I can't believe what a year it has been.

Coming back from Israel has made me see, how badly I actually wanted to escape Christmas here, how badly I wanted to get away from everyone here. And now I see, how much I'd give, to spend New Year's Day in a far away land, where no one knows my name.

31st Decemember, will be the hardest day to face in all of 2006.

And as I leave this all behind, I have one question for you:

Will you still remember me for who I once was to you?

There's never a right time to say goodbye

FILL MY LITTLE WORLD;

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I wonder where you are
Please don't come around tonight
Cause I can't stand to see you
And I don't want to fight
Give me one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make
The same mistakes again with you

I finally figured out that
You're not coming back
And I'm not going anywhere
You were the one with all the faith
How did you let it slip away
That's right
I'm blaming this all on you
And the little things you didn't do
We both knew that you were stronger
Could have fought a little longer
You didn't hold it tight enough
You lost your grip
And I slipped right through your fingers

No more sleepless nights alone
This bed is better without you
No more waitin' up for calls
I've got nothin' left to say to you

Tell me again about those better days
This silence hurts me
More than anything you could say
Broken knuckles, broken heart
I fell in love then fell apart
You tried to run
I tried to hide
Still we managed to collide
Fell so hard, matching scars
Held you close, felt so far
Hearts beating out of time
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme

So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream
I don't feel like dying
But you're killing me

Just when the wounds start healing
You're there to break me open
Watch the blood spill
I'm getting used to this
I'll clean it in the morning



SHAKE THAT;

Deborah :)
16 May 1991
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RUNAWAY;

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Joy
Junle
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Sarah
Sarah ko
Shiyu
South
Talleah
Tamsin
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Vanessa
Weikang
Xinyi
Yirui
Yoke Mun
Yvonne Mak
Yvonne Ong


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